so you say the presents just a pleasant, interruption to the past.
Music makes me think.
The past month I've been so fed up with my friend situations, more than I ever have before. I'm so used to friends coming and going. And I'm used to getting in fights and ending things with people. The only person I have ever survived fights with is my best friend. And I'm glad we fight, it makes us so much stronger. After not talking for 2 weeks, the second we made up, things were 100 times better. She's the one I go to with everything and she's always there for me.
On the other hand, every other friendship seems a mess. I'm probably making things up in my head, seeing something that isn't really there, but it's how I feel. Sometimes I feel that everything I say or do is wrong. I hate feeling like that.
I want other people there who will talk to me and not revolve the conversation around them and their problems for once. I feel that I help so many people, and I like helping them, it makes me feel good. I just want someone there for me once in a while.
I'm pretty sure all of that was directed at one person. I want her to care and talk to me. Sure she's said she's there, but show it. Show me you really care and wanna help me.
"reasons like seasons, they constantly change"
This line is my life today. Just yesterday I was sitting on the bus, looking out the window at the leaves. I love looking at the leaves and appreciating how much I love the fall. It's my favorite season of the year, and once it comes, it goes fast. But this year, it seems to have moved faster. It started snowing today. I love the snow and the winter, but I love them when it's time. I was just getting used to how much I love everything yesterday, then all of the sudden it's snowing. I love all the seasons actually, for their own reasons, but I seem to love fall the most.
Things to look forward to:
11/18- Jack's Mannequin<3
11/29- Cobra/FTSK/HIT/SIL :D
12/24- Birthdayyy.
1/17- License!
I made this playlist a few days ago, and I reallly like it.
1. Jersey- Mayday Parade
2. Livin' Th' Dream- You, Me, and Everyone We Know
3. 3000 Miles- Valencia
4. Steel City- My Favorite Highway
5. Cry Your Eyes Out- Hit The Lights
6. Time To Pretend- MGMT
7. The Church Channel- Say Anything
8. Somebody's Gonna Miss Us- The Starting Line
9. Away We Go- Valencia
10. Stay Pretty- Farewell
11. Teasing To Please- Cute Is What We Aim For
12. Okay I Believe You, But My Tommy Gun Don't- Brand New
13. Catastrophe- Four Year Strong
14. Woe- Say Anything
15. Dance Halls Turn To Ghost Towns- The Audition
16. Admit It!!!- Say Anything
17. Do The Panic- Phantom Planet
18. Where Did You Go?- Valencia
19. I'd Be More Interested If You Were Already Spoken For...- You, Me, and Everyone We Know
20. Head In Hands- Valencia
21. Single Millionaires- Brighten
22. Acoustic- Hit The Lights
23. Young At Heart- William Tell
24. Knights Of The Island Counter- Dave Melillo
25. The Doctors Daughter- Parade The Day
26. I Don't Know About You, But I Came To Dance- Forever The Sickest Kids
27. Black Cat- Mayday Parade
28. Do It Again (You're Not Making Me Want To Touch You)- You, Me, and Everyone We Know
29. An Orgy Of Critics- Say Anything
30. Tenth Street- Valencia31. Konstantine (11:11 version)- Something Corporate
32. Rough Landing Holly- Yellowcard
33. Kids- MGMT
34. Stay Out- Hit The Lights
35. Hell To Sell- The Audition
36. Simple Life- My Favorite Highway
37. The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows- Brand New
38. From Here To California- Go Crash Audio
39. North By Northwest- Robot Love Story
40. You're So Last Summer- Taking Back Sunday
41. Everything- A Cursive Memory
42. I Got Your Money- Say Anything