there you go for the last time

I finally know now what I should have known then and I could still be ruthless if you let me.

I'm really starting to feel like I'm being used. And I don't feel safe anymore. I feel that I can't say what I really want to because you'll come on here and read it. You can read whatever you want on jm.org, but I don't want you to find this cause here I go:
Everytime we're at my house you want to go for a walk and sit in front of his house. I don't get it. Just fucking talk to him. Ask him to hangout. Do it at your house. Why does it have to be here. This should be our time, but instead all you can focus on is him. If he really likes you like he does, he'd hangout with you. Just ask him. Stop making me be the middle person and revolving our plans around how we can get to him. It's pissing me off and I think eventually it could ruin our friendship. And that's something I don't want to lose. I'm here to help you and talk about him, but not 24/7. I want you to show consideration for my problems when I have them. I want you to make effort in fixing them with me. I think I've done a lot for you, but right now I can't stand it. I don't want to go for a walk every single time and just sit there. I feel stupid and I feel like he's an asshole.
Also, one more thing. Stop telling me everything I say or do is stupid.


forget me.